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Book of Life - publd. /' ,- |, | ', |/::. http://bol.sf.net/ by http://kfa.org );:--' \,/ -.;' `./ \| with http://jave.de/ : Plans for the ~ YEAR 2006~ : : __________________________________ : 5P9i0s8y19Z id=2 dt=Text January 1 J-A-N-U-A-R-Y 2006 : M.O.O.N : --+--+--+--+--+--+-- ---+---+---+--- MO TU WE TH FR SA SU FQ FM LQ NM --+--+--+--+--+--+-- 07 14 23 30 01 ---+---+---+--- 02 03 04 05 06 07 08 09 10 11 12 13 14 15 CAPRICORN _/ 16 17 18[19]20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 \_ AQUARIUS 30 31 Monthly Goals: 5P9i0s8y19Z id=3 dt=Text Sun, 01 2 Sunday, January 1st 2006 (Day 1) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | JAN/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[31]--[02]--[01]--[01] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Listen with ease | | ================ | | | | Have you ever sat very silently, not with your | | attention fixed on anything, not making an | | effort to concentrate, but with the mind very | | quiet, really still? Then you hear everything, | | don't you? You hear the far off noises as well | | as those that are nearer and those that are | | very close by, the immediate sounds-which means | | really that you are listening to everything. | | Your mind is not confined to one narrow little | | channel. If you can listen in this way, listen | | with ease, without strain, you will find an | | extraordinary change taking place within you, a | | change which comes without your volition, | | without your asking; and in that change there | | is great beauty and depth of insight. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=4 dt=Text Mon, 02 2 Monday, January 2nd 2006 (Day 2) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[01]--[03]--[02]--[02] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Putting aside screens | | ====================== | | | | How do youlisten? Do you listen with your | | projections, through your projection, through | | your ambitions, desires, fears, anxieties, | | through hearing only what you want to hear, | | only what will be satisfactory, what will | | gratify, what will give comfort, what will for | | the moment alleviate your suffering? If you | | listen through the screen of your desires, then | | you obviously listen to your own voice; you are | | listening to your own desires. And is there any | | other form of listening? Is it not important to | | find out how to listen not only to what is | | being said but to everything- to the noise in | | the streets, to the chatter of birds, to the | | noise of the tramcar, to the restless sea, to | | the voice of your husband, to your wife, to | | your friends, to the cry of a baby? Listening | | has importance only when one is not projecting | | one's own desires through which one listens. | | Can one put aside all these screens through | | which we listen, and really listen? | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=5 dt=Text Tue, 03 2 Tuesday, January 3rd 2006 (Day 3) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[02]--[04]--[03]--[03] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Beyond the noise of words | | ========================= | | | | Listening is an art not easily come by, but in | | it there is beauty and great understanding. We | | listen with the various depths of our being, | | but our listening is always with a | | preconception or from a particular point of | | view. We do not listen simply; there is always | | the intervening screen of our own thoughts, | | conclusions, and prejudices....To listen there | | must be an inward quietness, a freedom from the | | strain of acquiring, a relaxed attention. This | | alert yet passive state is able to hear what is | | beyond the verbal conclusion. Words confuse; | | they are only the outward means of | | communication; but to commune beyond the noise | | of words, there must be in listening an alert | | passivity. Those who love may listen; but it is | | extremely rare to find a listener. Most of us | | are after results, achieving goals; we are | | forever overcoming and conquering, and so there | | is no listening. It is only in listening that | | one hears the song of the words. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=6 dt=Text Wed, 04 2 Wednesday, January 4th 2006 (Day 4) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[03]--[05]--[04]--[04] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Listening without thought | | ========================= | | | | I do not know whether you have listened to a | | bird. To listen to something demands that your | | mind be quiet- not a mystical quietness, but | | just quietness. I am telling you something, and | | to listen to me you have to be quiet, not have | | all kinds of ideas buzzing in your mind. When | | you look at a flower, you look at it, not | | naming it, not classifying it, not saying that | | it belongs to a certain species- when you do | | these, you cease to look at it. Therefore I am | | saying that it is one of the most difficult | | things to listen- to listen to the communist, | | to the socialist, to the congressman, to the | | capitalist, to anybody, to your wife, to your | | children, to your neighbor, to the bus | | conductor, to the bird- just to listen. It is | | only when you listen without the idea, without | | thought, that you are directly in contact; and | | being in contact, you will understand whether | | what he is saying is true or false; you do not | | have to discuss. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=7 dt=Text Thu, 05 2 Thursday, January 5th 2006 (Day 5) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[04]--[06]--[05]--[05] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Listening brings freedom | | ======================== | | | | When you make an effort to listen, are you | | listening? Is not that very effort a | | distraction that prevents listening? Do you | | make an effort when you listen to something | | that gives you delight? ...You are not aware of | | the truth, nor do you see the false as the | | false, as long as your mind is occupied in any | | way with effort, with comparison, with | | justification or | | condemnation....Listeningitself is a complete | | act; the very act of listening brings its own | | freedom. But are you really concerned with | | listening, or with altering the turmoil within? | | If you would listen, sir, in the sense of being | | aware of your conflicts and contradictions | | without forcing them into any particular | | pattern of thought, perhaps they might | | altogether cease. You see, we are constantly | | trying to be this or that, to achieve a | | particular state, to capture one kind of | | experience and avoid another, so the mind is | | everlastingly occupied with something; it is | | never still to listen to the noise of its own | | struggles and pains. Be simple...and don't try | | to become something or to capture some | | experience. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=8 dt=Text Fri, 06 2 Friday, January 6th 2006 (Day 6) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[05]--[07]--[06]--[06] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Listening without effort | | ======================== | | | | You are now listening to me; you are not making | | an effort to pay attention, you are just | | listening; and if there is truth in what you | | hear, you will find a remarkable change taking | | place in you- a change that is not premeditated | | or wished for, a transformation, a complete | | revolution in which the truth alone is master | | and not the creations of your mind. And if I | | may suggest it, you should listen in that way | | to everything- not only to what I am saying, | | but also to what other people are saying, to | | the birds, to the whistle of a locomotive, to | | the noise of the bus going by. You will find | | that the more you listen to everything, the | | greater is the silence, and that silence is | | then not broken by noise. It is only when you | | are resisting something, when you are putting | | up a barrier between yourself and that to which | | you do not want to listen- it is only then that | | there is a struggle. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=9 dt=Text Sat, 07 2 Saturday, January 7th 2006 (Day 7) FQ TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[06]--[08]--[07]--[07] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Listening to yourself | | ===================== | | | | Questioner: While I am here listening to you, I | | seem to understand, but when I am away from | | here, I don't understand, even though I try to | | apply what you have been saying.Krishnamurti: | | ...You are listening to yourself, and not to | | the speaker. If you are listening to the | | speaker, he becomes your leader, your way to | | understanding which is a horror, an | | abomination, because you have then established | | the hierarchy of authority. So what you are | | doing here is listening to yourself. You are | | looking at the picture the speaker is painting, | | which is your own picture, not the speaker's. | | If that much is clear, that you are looking at | | yourself, then you can say, "Well, I see myself | | as I am, and I don't want to do anything about | | it"- and that is the end of it. But if you say, | | "I see myself as I am, and there must be a | | change," then you begin to work out of your own | | understanding- which is entirely different from | | applying what the speaker is saying....But if, | | as the speaker is speaking, you are listening | | to yourself, then ou t of that listening there | | is clarity, there is sensitivity; out of that | | listening the mind becomes healthy, strong. | | Neither obeying nor resisting, it becomes | | alive, intense and it is only such a human | | being who can create a new generation, a new | | world. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=10 dt=Text Sun, 08 2 Sunday, January 8th 2006 (Day 8) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[07]--[09]--[08]--[08] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Look with intensity | | =================== | | | | ... It seems to me that learning is | | astonishingly difficult, as is listening also. | | We never actually listen to anything because | | our mind is not free; our ears are stuffed up | | with those things that we already know, so | | listening becomes extraordinarily difficult. I | | think-or rather, it is a fact-that if one can | | listen to something with all of one's being, | | with vigor, with vitality, then the very act of | | listening is a liberative factor, but | | unfortunately you never do listen, as you have | | never learned about it. After all, you only | | learn when you give your whole being to | | something. When you give your whole being to | | mathematics, you learn; but when you are in a | | state of contradiction, when you do not want to | | learn but are forced to learn, then it becomes | | merely a process of accumulation. To learn is | | like reading a novel with innumerable | | characters; it requires your full attention, | | not contradictory attention. If you want to | | learn about a leaf-a leaf of the spring or a | | leaf of the summer-you must really look at it, | | s ee the symmetry of it, the texture of it, the | | quality of the living leaf. There is beauty, | | there is vigor, there is vitality in a single | | leaf. So to learn about the leaf, the flower, | | the cloud, the sunset, or a human being, you | | must look with all intensity. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=11 dt=Text Mon, 09 2 Monday, January 9th 2006 (Day 9) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[08]--[10]--[09]--[09] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | To learnthe mind must be quiet | | =============================== | | | | To discover anything new you must start on your | | own; you must start on a journey completely | | denuded, especially of knowledge, because it is | | very easy, through knowledge and belief, to | | have experiences; but those experiences are | | merely the products of self-projection and | | therefore utterly unreal, false. If you are to | | discover for yourself what is the new, it is no | | good carrying the burden of the old, especially | | knowledge- the knowledge of another, however | | great. You use knowledge as a means of | | self-projection, security, and you want to be | | quite sure that you have the same experiences | | as the Buddha or the Christ or X. But a man who | | is protecting himself constantly through | | knowledge is obviously not a | | truth-seeker....For the discovery of truth | | there is no path.... When you want to find | | something new, when you are experimenting with | | anything, your mind has to be very quiet, has | | it not? If your mind is crowded, filled with | | facts, knowledge, they act as an impediment to | | the new; the difficulty for most of us is tha t | | the mind has become so important, so | | predominantly significant, that it interferes | | constantly with anything that may be new, with | | anything that may exist simultaneously with the | | known. Thus knowledge and learning are | | impediments for those who would seek, for those | | who would try to understand that which is | | timeless. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=12 dt=Text Tue, 10 2 Tuesday, January 10th 2006 (Day 10) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[09]--[11]--[10]--[10] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Learning is not experience | | ========================== | | | | The word learning has great significance. There | | are two kinds of learning. For most of us | | learning means the accumulation of knowledge, | | of experience, of technology, of a skill, of a | | language. There is also psychological learning, | | learning through experience, either the | | immediate experiences of life, which leave a | | certain residue, of tradition, of the race, of | | society. There are these two kinds of learning | | how to meet life: psychological and | | physiological; outward skill and inward skill. | | There is really no line of demarcation between | | the two; they overlap. We are not considering | | for the moment the skill that we learn through | | practice, the technological knowledge that we | | acquire through study. What we are concerned | | about is the psychological learning that we | | have acquired through the centuries or | | inherited as tradition, as knowledge, as | | experience. This we call learning, but I | | question whether it is learning at all. I am | | not talking about learning a skill, a language, | | a technique, but I am asking whether the m ind | | ever learns psychologically. It has learned, | | and with what it has learned it meets the | | challenge of life. It is always translating | | life or the new challenge according to what it | | has learned. That is what we are doing. Is that | | learning? Doesn't learning imply something new, | | something that I don't know and am learning? If | | I am merely adding to what I already know, it | | is no longer learning. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=13 dt=Text Wed, 11 2 Wednesday, January 11th 2006 (Day 11) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[10]--[12]--[11]--[11] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | When is learning possible | | ========================== | | | | To inquire and to learn is the function of the | | mind. By learning I do not mean the mere | | cultivation of memory or the accumulation of | | knowledge, but the capacity to think clearly | | and sanely without illusion, to start from | | facts and not from beliefs and ideals. There is | | no learning if thought originates from | | conclusions. Merely to acquire information or | | knowledge is not to learn. Learning implies the | | love of understanding and the love of doing a | | thing for itself. Learning is possible only | | when there is no coercion of any kind. And | | coercion takes many forms, does it not? There | | is coercion through influence, through | | attachment or threat, through persuasive | | encouragement, or subtle forms of reward.Most | | people think that learning is encouraged | | through comparison, whereas the contrary is the | | fact. Comparison brings about frustration and | | merely encourages envy, which is called | | competition. Like other forms of persuasion, | | comparison prevents learning and breeds fear. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=14 dt=Text Thu, 12 2 Thursday, January 12th 2006 (Day 12) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[11]--[13]--[12]--[12] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Learning is never accumulative | | ============================== | | | | Learning is one thing and acquiring knowledge | | is another. Learning is a continuous process, | | not a process of addition, not a process which | | you gather and then from there act. Most of us | | gather knowledge as memory, as idea, store it | | up as experience, and from there act. That is, | | we act from knowledge, technological knowledge, | | knowledge as experience, knowledge as | | tradition, knowledge that one has derived | | through one's particular idiosyncratic | | tendencies; with that background, with that | | accumulation as knowledge, as experience, as | | tradition, we act. In that process there is no | | learning. Learning is never accumulative; it is | | a constant movement. I do not know if you have | | ever gone into this question at all: what is | | learning and what is the acquisition of | | knowledge? ...Learning is never accumulative. | | You cannot store up learning and then from that | | storehouse act. You learn as you are going | | along. Therefore, there is never a moment of | | retrogression or deterioration or decline. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=15 dt=Text Fri, 13 2 Friday, January 13th 2006 (Day 13) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[12]--[14]--[13]--[13] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Learning has no past | | ==================== | | | | Wisdom issomething that has to be discovered by | | each one, and it is not the result of | | knowledge. Knowledge and wisdom do not go | | together. Wisdom comes when there is the | | maturity of self-knowing. Without knowing | | oneself, order is not possible, and therefore | | there is no virtue.Now, learning about oneself, | | and accumulating knowledge about oneself, are | | two different things.... A mind that is | | acquiring knowledge is never learning. What it | | is doing is this: It is gathering to itself | | information, experience as knowledge, and from | | the background of what it has gathered, it | | experiences, it learns; and therefore it is | | never really learning, but always knowing, | | acquiring.Learning is always in the active | | present; it has no past. The moment you say to | | yourself, 'I have learned,' it has already | | become knowledge, and from the background of | | that knowledge you can accumulate, translate, | | but you cannot further learn. It is only a mind | | that is not acquiring, but always learning-it | | is only such a mind that can understand this wh | | ole entity that we call the 'me,' the self. I | | have to know myself, the structure, the nature, | | the significance of the total entity; but I | | can't do that burdened with my previous | | knowledge, with my previous experience, or with | | a mind that is conditioned, for then I am not | | learning, I am merely interpreting, | | translating, looking with an eye that is | | already clouded by the past. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=16 dt=Text Sat, 14 2 Saturday, January 14th 2006 (Day 14) FM TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[13]--[15]--[14]--[14] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Authority prevents learning | | =========================== | | | | We generally learn through study, through | | books, through experience, or through being | | instructed. Those are the usual ways of | | learning. We commit to memory what to do and | | what not to do, what to think and what not to | | think, how to feel, how to react. Through | | experience, through study, through analysis, | | through probing, through introspective | | examination, we store up knowledge as memory; | | and memory then responds to further challenges | | and demands, from which there is more and more | | learning....What is learned is committed to | | memory as knowledge, and that knowledge | | functions whenever there is a challenge, or | | whenever we have to do something.Now I think | | there is a totally different way of learning, | | and I am going to talk a little bit about it; | | but to understand it, and to learn in this | | different way, you must be completely rid of | | authority; otherwise, you will merely be | | instructed, and you will repeat what you have | | heard. That is why it is very important to | | understand the nature of authority. Authority | | prevents lea rning- learning that is not the | | accumulation of knowledge as memory. Memory | | always responds in patterns; there is no | | freedom. A man who is burdened with knowledge, | | with instructions, who is weighted down by the | | things he has learned, is never free. He may be | | most extraordinarily erudite, but his | | accumulation of knowledge prevents him from | | being free, and therefore he is incapable of | | learning. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=17 dt=Text Sun, 15 2 Sunday, January 15th 2006 (Day 15) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[14]--[16]--[15]--[15] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | To destroy is to create | | ======================= | | | | To be free, you have to examine authority, the | | whole skeleton of authority, tearing to pieces | | the whole dirty thing. And that requires | | energy, actual physical energy, and also, it | | demands psychological energy. But the energy is | | destroyed, is wasted when one is in conflict. | | ... So when there is the understanding of the | | whole process of conflict, there is the ending | | of conflict, there is abundance of energy. Then | | you can proceed, tearing down the house that | | you have built throughout the centuries and | | that has no meaning at all.You know,to destroy | | is to create. We must destroy, not the | | buildings, not the social or economic system- | | this comes about daily- but the psychological, | | the unconscious and the conscious defenses, | | securities that one has built up rationally, | | individually, deeply, and superficially. We | | must tear through all that to be utterly | | defenseless, because you must be defenseless to | | love and have affection. Then you see and | | understand ambition, authority; and you begin | | to see when authority is necess ary and at what | | level-the authority of the policeman and no | | more. Then there is no authority of learning, | | no authority of knowledge, no authority of | | capacity, no authority that function assumes | | and which becomes status. To understand all | | authority- of the gurus, of the Masters, and | | others- requires a very sharp mind, a clear | | brain, not a muddy brain, not a dull brain. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=18 dt=Text Mon, 16 2 Monday, January 16th 2006 (Day 16) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[15]--[17]--[16]--[16] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Virtue has no authority | | ======================= | | | | Can the mind be free from authority, which | | means free from fear, so that it is no longer | | capable of following? If so, this puts an end | | to imitation, which becomes mechanical. After | | all, virtue, ethics, is not a repetition of | | what is good. The moment it becomes mechanical, | | it ceases to be virtue. Virtue is something | | that must be from moment to moment, like | | humility. Humility cannot be cultivated, and a | | mind that has no humility is incapable of | | learning. So virtue has no authority. The | | social morality is no morality at all; it's | | immoral because it admits competition, greed, | | ambition, and therefore society is encouraging | | immorality. Virtue is something that transcends | | morality. Without virtue there is no order, and | | order is not according to a pattern, according | | to a formula. A mind that follows a formula | | through disciplining itself to achieve virtue | | creates for itself the problems of | | immorality.An external authority that the mind | | objectifies, apart from the law, as God, as | | moral, and so on, becomes destructive w hen the | | mind is seeking to understand what real virtue | | is. We have our own authority as experience, as | | knowledge, which we are trying to follow. There | | is this constant repetition, imitation, which | | we all know. Psychological authority- not the | | authority of the law, the policeman who keeps | | order- the psychological authority, which each | | one has, becomes destructive of virtue because | | virtue is something that is living, moving. As | | you cannot possibly cultivate humility, as you | | cannot possibly cultivate love, so also virtue | | cannot be cultivated; and there is great beauty | | in that. Virtue is nonmechanical, and without | | virtue there is no foundation for clear | | thinking. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=19 dt=Text Tue, 17 2 Tuesday, January 17th 2006 (Day 17) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[16]--[18]--[17]--[17] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | The old mind is bound by authority | | ================================== | | | | The problem then is: Is it possible for a mind | | that has been so conditioned-brought up in | | innumerable sects, religions, and all the | | superstitions, fears- to break away from itself | | and thereby bring about a new mind?....The old | | mind is essentially the mind that is bound by | | authority. I am not using the word authority in | | the legalistic sense; but by that word I mean | | authority as tradition, authority as knowledge, | | authority as experience, authority as the means | | of finding security and remaining in that | | security, outwardly or inwardly, because, after | | all, that is what the mind is always seeking-a | | place where it can be secure, undisturbed. Such | | authority may be the self-imposed authority of | | an idea or the so-called religious idea of God, | | which has no reality to a religious person. An | | idea is not a fact, it is a fiction. God is a | | fiction; you may believe in it, but still it is | | a fiction. But to find God you must completely | | destroy the fiction, because the old mind is | | the mind that is frightened, is ambitious, is | | fe arful of death, of living, and of | | relationship; and it is always, consciously or | | unconsciously, seeking a permanency, security. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=20 dt=Text Wed, 18 2 Wednesday, January 18th 2006 (Day 18) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[17]--[19]--[18]--[18] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Free at the beginning | | ===================== | | | | If we canunderstand the compulsion behind our | | desire to dominate or to be dominated, then | | perhaps we can be free from the crippling | | effects of authority. We crave to be certain, | | to be right, to be successful, to know; and | | this desire for certainty, for permanence, | | builds up within ourselves the authority of | | personal experience, while outwardly it creates | | the authority of society, of the family, of | | religion, and so on. But merely to ignore | | authority, to shake off its outward symbols, is | | of very little significance.To break away from | | one tradition and conform to another, to leave | | this leader and follow that, is but a | | superficial gesture. If we are to be aware of | | the whole process of authority, if we are to | | see the inwardness of it, if we are to | | understand and transcend the desire for | | certainty, then we must have extensive | | awareness and insight, we must be free, not at | | the end, but at the beginning. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=21 dt=Text Thu, 19 2 Thursday, January 19th 2006 (Day 19) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[18]--[20]--[19]--[19] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Liberation from ignorance from sorrow | | ====================================== | | | | We listenwith hope and fear; we seek the light | | of another but are not alertly passive to be | | able to understand. If the liberated seems to | | fulfill our desires we accept him; if not, we | | continue our search for the one who will; what | | most of us desire is gratification at different | | levels. What is important is not how to | | recognize one who is liberated but how to | | understand yourself. No authority here or | | hereafter can give you knowledge of yourself; | | without self-knowledge there is no liberation | | from ignorance, from sorrow. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=22 dt=Text Fri, 20 2 Friday, January 20th 2006 (Day 20) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[19]--[21]--[20]--[20] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Why do we follow | | ================= | | | | Why do weaccept, why do we follow? We follow | | another's authority, another's experience and | | then doubt it; this search for authority and | | its sequel, disillusionment, is a painful | | process for most of us. We blame or criticize | | the once accepted authority, the leader, the | | teacher, but we do not examine our own craving | | for an authority who can direct our conduct. | | Once we understand this craving we shall | | comprehend the significance of doubt. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=23 dt=Text Sat, 21 2 Saturday, January 21st 2006 (Day 21) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[20]--[22]--[21]--[21] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Authority corrupts both leader and follower | | =========================================== | | | | Self-awareness is arduous, and since most of us | | prefer an easy, illusory way, we bring into | | being the authority that gives shape and | | pattern to our life. This authority may be the | | collective, the State; or it may be the | | personal, the Master, the savior, the guru. | | Authority of any kind is blinding, it breeds | | thoughtlessness; and as most of us find that to | | be thoughtful is to have pain, we give | | ourselves over to authority. Authority | | engenders power, and power always becomes | | centralized and therefore utterly corrupting; | | it corrupts not only the wielder of power, but | | also him who follows it. The authority of | | knowledge and experience is perverting, whether | | it be vested in the Master, his representative | | or the priest. It is your own life, this | | seemingly endless conflict, that is | | significant, and not the pattern or the leader. | | The authority of the Master and the priest | | takes you away from the central issue, which is | | the conflict within yourself. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=24 dt=Text Sun, 22 2 Sunday, January 22nd 2006 (Day 22) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[21]--[23]--[22]--[22] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Can I rely on my experience | | ============================ | | | | Most of usare satisfied with authority because | | it gives us a continuity, a certainty, a sense | | of being protected. But a man who would | | understand the implications of this deep | | psychological revolution must be free of | | authority, must he not? He cannot look to any | | authority, whether of his own creation or | | imposed upon him by another. And is this | | possible? Is it possible for me not to rely on | | the authority of my own experience? Even when I | | have rejected all the outward expressions of | | authority-books, teachers, priests, churches, | | beliefs-I still have the feeling that at least | | I can rely on my own judgment, on my own | | experiences, on my own analysis. But can I rely | | on my experience, on my judgment, on my | | analysis? My experience is the result of my | | conditioning, just as yours is the result of | | your conditioning, is it not? I may have been | | brought up as a Muslim or a Buddhist or a | | Hindu, and my experience will depend on my | | cultural, economic,social, and religious | | background, just as yours will. And can I rely | | on that? Can I rely for guidance, for hope, for | | the vision which will give me faith in my own | | judgment, which again is the result of | | accumulated memories, experiences, the | | conditioning of the past meeting the | | present?...Now, when I have put all these | | questions to myself and I am aware of this | | problem, I see there can only be one state in | | which reality, newness, can come into being, | | which brings about a revolution. That state is | | when the mind is completely empty of the past, | | when there is no analyzer, no experience, no | | judgment, no authority of any kind. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=25 dt=Text Mon, 23 2 Monday, January 23rd 2006 (Day 23) LQ TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[22]--[24]--[23]--[23] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Selfknowledge is a process | | =========================== | | | | So, to understand the innumerable problems that | | each one of us has, is it not essential that | | there be self-knowledge? And that is one of the | | most difficult things, self-awareness - which | | does not mean an isolation, a withdrawal. | | Obviously, to know oneself is essential; but to | | know oneself does not imply a withdrawal from | | relationship. And it would be a mistake, | | surely, to think that one can know oneself | | significantly, completely, fully, through | | isolation, through exclusion, or by going to | | some psychologist, or to some priest; or that | | one can learn self-knowledge through a book. | | Self-knowledge is obviously a process, not an | | end in itself; and to know oneself, one must be | | aware of oneself in action, which is | | relationship. You discover yourself, not in | | isolation, not in withdrawal, but in | | relationship-in relationship to society, to | | your wife, your husband, your brother, to man; | | but to discover how you react, what your | | responses are, requires an extraordinary | | alertness of mind, a keenness of perception. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=26 dt=Text Tue, 24 2 Tuesday, January 24th 2006 (Day 24) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[23]--[25]--[24]--[24] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | The untethered mind | | =================== | | | | The transformation of the world is brought | | about by the transformation of oneself, because | | the self is the product and a part of the total | | process of human existence. To transform | | oneself, self-knowledge is essential; without | | knowing what you are, there is no basis for | | right thought, and without knowing yourself | | there cannot be transformation. One must know | | oneself as one is, not as one wishes to be, | | which is merely an ideal and therefore | | fictitious, unreal; it is only that which is | | that can be transformed, not that which you | | wish to be. To know oneself as one is requires | | an extraordinary alertness of mind, because | | what is is constantly undergoing | | transformation, change; and to follow it | | swiftly the mind must not be tethered to any | | particular dogma or belief, to any particular | | pattern of action. If you would follow | | anything, it is no good being tethered. To know | | yourself, there must be the awareness, the | | alertness of mind in which there is freedom | | from all beliefs, from all idealization, | | because beliefs and i deals only give you a | | color, perverting true perception. If you want | | to know what you are, you cannot imagine or | | have belief in something which you are not. If | | I am greedy, envious, violent, merely having an | | ideal of non-violence, of non-greed, is of | | little value.... The understanding of what you | | are, whatever it be- ugly or beautiful, wicked | | or mischievous- the understanding of what you | | are, without distortion, is the beginning of | | virtue. Virtue is essential, for it gives | | freedom. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=27 dt=Text Wed, 25 2 Wednesday, January 25th 2006 (Day 25) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[24]--[26]--[25]--[25] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Active selfknowledge | | ===================== | | | | Without self-knowledge, experience breeds | | illusion; with self-knowledge, experience, | | which is the response to challenge, does not | | leave a cumulative residue as memory. | | Self-knowledge is the discovery from moment to | | moment of the ways of the self, its intentions | | and pursuit, its thoughts and appetites. There | | can never be "your experience" and "my | | experience"; the very term "my experience" | | indicates ignorance and the acceptance of | | illusion. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=28 dt=Text Thu, 26 2 Thursday, January 26th 2006 (Day 26) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[25]--[27]--[26]--[26] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Creativeness through selfknowledge | | =================================== | | | | ...There is no method for self-knowledge. | | Seeking a method invariably implies the desire | | to attain some result and that is what we all | | want. We follow authority - if not that of a | | person, then of a system, of an ideology | | because we want a result that will be | | satisfactory, which will give us security. We | | really do not want to understand ourselves, our | | impulses and reactions, the whole process of | | our thinking, the conscious as well as the | | unconscious; we would rather pursue a system | | which assures us of a result. But the pursuit | | of a system is invariably the outcome of our | | desire for security, for certainty, and the | | result is obviously not the understanding of | | oneself. When we follow a method, we must have | | authorities- the teacher, the guru, the savior, | | the Master - who will guarantee us what we | | desire; and surely that is not the way to | | self-knowledge.Authorityprevents the | | understanding of oneself, does it not? Under | | the shelter of an authority, a guide, you may | | have temporarily a sense of security, a sense | | of w ell-being, but that is not the | | understanding of the total process of oneself. | | Authority in its very nature prevents the full | | awareness of oneself and therefore ultimately | | destroys freedom; in freedom alone can there be | | creativeness. There can be creativeness only | | through self-knowledge. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=29 dt=Text Fri, 27 2 Friday, January 27th 2006 (Day 27) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[26]--[28]--[27]--[27] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Quiet mind simple mind | | ======================= | | | | When we are aware of ourselves, is not the | | whole movement of living a way of uncovering | | the "me," the ego, the self? The self is a very | | complex process which can be uncovered only in | | relationship, in our daily activities, in the | | way we talk, the way we judge, calculate, the | | way we condemn others and ourselves. All that | | reveals the conditioned state of our own | | thinking, and is it not important to be aware | | of this whole process? It is only through | | awareness of what is true from moment to moment | | that there is discovery of the timeless, the | | eternal. Without self-knowledge, the eternal | | cannot be. When we do not know ourselves, the | | eternal becomes a mere word, a symbol, a | | speculation, a dogma, a belief, an illusion to | | which the mind can escape. But if one begins to | | understand the "me" in all its various | | activities from day to day, then in that very | | understanding, without any effort, the | | nameless, the timeless comes into being. But | | the timeless is not a reward for | | self-knowledge. That which is eternal cannot | | besough t after ; the mind cannot acquire it. | | It comes into being when the mind is quiet, and | | the mind can be quiet only when it is simple, | | when it is no longer storing up, condemning, | | judging, weighing. It is only the simple mind | | that can understand the real, not the mind that | | is full of words, knowledge, information. The | | mind that analyzes, calculates, is not a simple | | mind. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=30 dt=Text Sat, 28 2 Saturday, January 28th 2006 (Day 28) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[27]--[29]--[28]--[28] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Selfknowing | | ============ | | | | Without knowing yourself, do what you will, | | there cannot possibly be the state of | | meditation. I mean by "self-knowing," knowing | | every thought, every mood, every word, every | | feeling; knowing the activity of your mind-not | | knowing the Supreme Self, the big Self; there | | is no such thing; the Higher Self, the Atman, | | is still within the field of thought. Thought | | is the result of your conditioning, thought is | | the response of your memory-ancestral or | | immediate. And merely to try to meditate | | without first establishing deeply, irrevocably, | | that virtue which comes about through | | self-knowing, is utterly deceptive and | | absolutely useless.Please, itis very important | | for those who are serious, to understand this. | | Because if you cannot do that, your meditation | | and actual living are divorced, are apart-so | | wide apart that though you may meditate, taking | | postures indefinitely, for the rest of your | | life, you will not see beyond your nose; any | | posture you take, anything that you do, will | | have no meaning whatsoever.... It isimportan t | | to understand what this self-knowing is, just | | to be aware, without any choice, of the "me" | | which has its source in a bundle of memories- | | just to be conscious of it without | | interpretation, merely to observe the movement | | of the mind. But that observation is prevented | | when you are merely accumulating through | | observation - what to do, what not to do, what | | to achieve, what not to achieve; if you do | | that, you put an end to the living process of | | the movement of the mind as the self. That is, | | I have to observe and see the fact, the actual, | | the what is. If I approach it with an idea, | | with an opinion - such as "I must not," or "I | | must," which are the responses of memory- then | | the movement of what is is hindered, is | | blocked; and therefore, there is no learning. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=31 dt=Text Sun, 29 2 Sunday, January 29th 2006 (Day 29) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | FEB/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[28]--[30]--[29]--[29] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Creative emptiness | | ================== | | | | Can you not just listen to this as the soil | | receives the seed and see if the mind is | | capable of being free, empty? It can be empty | | only by understanding all its own projections, | | its own activities, not off and on, but from | | day to day, from moment to moment. Then you | | will find the answer, then you will see that | | the change comes without your asking, that the | | state of creative emptiness is not a thing to | | be cultivated- it is there, it comes darkly, | | without any invitation, and only in that state | | is there a possibility of renewal, newness, | | revolution. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=32 dt=Text Mon, 30 2 Monday, January 30th 2006 (Day 30) NM TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ MAR/ APR/ MAY/ +--[01]--[31]--[30]--[30] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Selfknowledge | | ============== | | | | Right thinking comes with self-knowledge. | | Without understanding yourself, you have no | | basis for thought; without self-knowledge what | | you think is not true.You and the world are not | | two different entities with separate problems; | | you and the world are one. Your problem is the | | world's problem. You may be the result of | | certain tendencies, of environmental | | influences, but you are not different | | fundamentally from another. Inwardly we are | | very much alike; we are all driven by greed, | | ill will, fear, ambition, and so on. Our | | beliefs, hopes, aspirations have a common | | basis. We are one; we are one humanity, though | | the artificial frontiers of economics and | | politics and prejudice divide us. If you kill | | another, you are destroying yourself. You are | | the center of the whole, and without | | understanding yourself you cannot understand | | reality.We have anintellectual knowledge of | | this unity but we keep knowledge and feeling in | | different compartments and hence we never | | experience the extraordinary unity of man. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=33 dt=Text Tue, 31 2 Tuesday, January 31st 2006 (Day 31) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ MAY/ +--[02]--[01]--[01]--[31] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Relationship is a mirror | | ======================== | | | | Self-knowledge is not according to any formula. | | You may go to a psychologist or a psychoanalyst | | to find out about yourself, but that is not | | self-knowledge. Self-knowledge, comes into | | being when we are aware, of ourselves in | | relationship, which shows what we are from | | moment to moment. Relationship is a mirror in | | which to see ourselves as we actually are. But | | most of us are incapable of looking at | | ourselves as we are in relationship, because we | | immediately begin to condemn or justify what we | | see. We judge, we evaluate, we compare, we deny | | or accept, but we never observe actually what | | is, and for most people this seems to be the | | most difficult thing to do; yet this alone is | | the beginning of self-knowledge. If one is able | | to see oneself as one is in this extraordinary | | mirror of relationship which does not distort, | | if one can just look into this mirror with full | | attention and see actually what is, be aware of | | it without condemnation, without judgment, | | without evaluation - and one does this when | | there is earnest in terest then one will find | | that the mind is capable of freeing itself from | | all conditioning; and it is only then that the | | mind is free to discover that which lies beyond | | the field of thought.After all,however learned | | or however petty the mind may be, it is | | consciously or unconsciously limited, | | conditioned, and any extension of this | | conditioning is still within the field of | | thought. So freedom is something entirely | | different. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=34 dt=Text February 1 F-E-B-R-U-A-R-Y 2006 : M.O.O.N : --+--+--+--+--+--+-- ---+---+---+--- MO TU WE TH FR SA SU FQ FM LQ --+--+--+--+--+--+-- 05 13 21 01 02 03 04 05 ---+---+---+--- 06 07 08 09 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17[18]19 AQUARIUS _/ 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 \_ PISCES Monthly Goals: 5P9i0s8y19Z id=35 dt=Text Wed, 01 2 Wednesday, February 1st 2006 (Day 32) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[03]--[02]--[02]--[01] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Becoming is strife | | ================== | | | | Life as weknow it, our daily life, is a process | | of becoming. I am poor and I act with an end in | | view, which is to become rich. I am ugly and I | | want to become beautiful. Therefore my life is | | a process of becoming something. The will to be | | is the will to become, at different levels of | | consciousness, in different states, in which | | there is challenge, response, naming and | | recording. Now, this becoming is strife, this | | becoming is pain, it is not? It is a constant | | struggle: I am this, and I want to become that. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=36 dt=Text Thu, 02 2 Thursday, February 2nd 2006 (Day 33) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[04]--[03]--[03]--[02] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | All becoming is disintegration | | ============================== | | | | The mind has an idea, perhaps pleasurable, and | | it wants to be like that idea, which is a | | projection of your desire. You are this, which | | you do not like, and you want to become that, | | which you like. The ideal is a self-projection; | | the opposite is an extension of what is; it is | | not the opposite at all, but a continuity of | | what is, perhaps somewhat modified. The | | projection is self-willed, and conflict is the | | struggle towards the projection.... You are | | struggling to become something, and that | | something is part of yourself. The ideal is | | your own projection. See how the mind has | | played a trick upon itself. You are struggling | | after words, pursuing your own projection, your | | own shadow. You are violent, and you are | | struggling to become nonviolent, the ideal; but | | the ideal is a projection of what is, only | | under a different name.When you are aware of | | this trick which you have played upon yourself, | | then the false as the false is seen. The | | struggle towards an illusion is the | | disintegrating factor. All conflict, all becomi | | ng is disintegration. When there is an | | awareness of this trick that the mind has | | played upon itself, then there is only what is. | | When the mind is stripped of all becoming, of | | all ideals, of all comparison and condemnation, | | when its own structure has collapsed, then the | | what is has undergone complete transformation. | | As long as there is the naming of what is, | | there is relationship between the mind and what | | is; but when this naming process -which is | | memory, the very structure of the mind- is not, | | then what is is not. In this transformation | | alone is there integration. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=37 dt=Text Fri, 03 2 Friday, February 3rd 2006 (Day 34) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[05]--[04]--[04]--[03] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Can the crude mind become sensitive | | ==================================== | | | | Listen tothe question, to the meaning behind | | the words. Can the crude mind become sensitive? | | If I say my mind is crude and I try to become | | sensitive, the very effort to become sensitive | | is crudity. Please see this. Don't be | | intrigued, but watch it. Whereas, if I | | recognize that I am crude without wanting to | | change, without trying to become sensitive, if | | I begin to understand what crudeness is, | | observe it in my life from day to day -the | | greedy way I eat, the roughness with which I | | treat people, the pride, the arrogance, the | | coarseness of my habits and thoughts -then that | | very observation transforms what | | is.Similarly,if I am stupid and I say I must | | become intelligent, the effort to become | | intelligent is only a greater form of | | stupidity; because what is important is to | | understand stupidity. However much I may try to | | become intelligent, my stupidity will remain. I | | may acquire the superficial polish of learning, | | I may be able to quote books, repeat passages | | from great authors, but basically I shall still | | be stupid. But if I see and understand | | stupidity as it expresses itself in my daily | | life- how I behave towards my servant, how I | | regard my neighbor, the poor man, the rich man, | | the clerk- then that very awareness brings | | about a breaking up of stupidity. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=38 dt=Text Sat, 04 2 Saturday, February 4th 2006 (Day 35) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[06]--[05]--[05]--[04] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Opportunities for selfexpansion | | ================================ | | | | ...Hierarchical structure offers an excellent | | opportunity for self-expansion. You may want | | brotherhood, but how can there be brotherhood | | if you are pursuing spiritual distinctions? You | | may smile at worldly titles; but when you admit | | the Master, the savior, the guru in the realm | | of the spirit, are you not carrying over the | | worldly attitude? Can there be hierarchical | | divisions or degrees in spiritual growth, in | | the understanding of truth, in the realization | | of God? Love admits no division. Either you | | love, or do not love; but do not make the lack | | of love into a long-drawn-out process whose end | | is love. When you know you do not love, when | | you are choicelessly aware of that fact, then | | there is a possibility of transformation; but | | to sedulously cultivate this distinction | | between the Master and the pupil, between those | | who have attained and those who have not, | | between the savior and the sinner, is to deny | | love. The exploiter, who is in turn exploited, | | finds a happy hunting-ground in this darkness | | and illusion....Se paration between God or | | reality and yourself is brought about by you, | | by the mind that clings to the known, to | | certainty, to security. This separation cannot | | be bridged over; there is no ritual, no | | discipline, no sacrifice that can carry you | | across it; there is no savior, no Master, no | | guru who can lead you to the real or destroy | | this separation. The division is not between | | the real and yourself; it is in | | yourself....What isessential is to understand | | the increasing conflict of desire; and this | | understanding comes only through self-knowledge | | and constant awareness of the movements of the | | self. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=39 dt=Text Sun, 05 2 Sunday, February 5th 2006 (Day 36) FQ TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[07]--[06]--[06]--[05] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Beyond all experiencing | | ======================= | | | | Understanding of the self requires a great deal | | of intelligence, a great deal of watchfulness, | | alertness, watching ceaselessly, so that it | | does not slip away. I who am very earnest, want | | to dissolve the self. When I say that, I know | | it is possible to dissolve the self. Please be | | patient. The moment I say "I want to dissolve | | this", and in the process I follow for the | | dissolution of that, there is the experiencing | | of the self; and so, the self is strengthened. | | So, how is it possible for the self not to | | experience? One can see that creation is not at | | all the experience of the self. Creation is | | when the self is not there, because creation is | | not intellectual, is not of the mind, is not | | self-projected, is something beyond all | | experiencing, as we know it. Is it possible for | | the mind to be quite still, in a state of | | nonrecognition, which is, non-experiencing, to | | be in a state in which creation can take place | | -which means, when the self is not there, when | | the self is absent? Am I making myself clear or | | not? ...The pr oblem is this, is it not? Any | | movement of the mind, positive or negative, is | | an experience which actually strengthens the | | `me'. Is it possible for the mind not to | | recognize? That can only take place when there | | is complete silence, but not the silence which | | is an experience of the self and which | | therefore strengthens the self. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=40 dt=Text Mon, 06 2 Monday, February 6th 2006 (Day 37) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[08]--[07]--[07]--[06] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | What is the self | | ================= | | | | The searchfor power, position, authority, | | ambition and all the rest are the forms of the | | self in all its different ways. But what is | | important is to understand the self and I am | | sure you and I are convinced of it. If I may | | add here, let us be earnest about this matter; | | because I feel that if you and I as | | individuals, not as a group of people belonging | | to certain classes, certain societies, certain | | climatic divisions, can understand this and act | | upon this, then I think there will be real | | revolution. The moment it becomes universal and | | better organized, the self takes shelter in | | that; whereas, if you and I as individuals can | | love, can carry this out actually in everyday | | life, then the revolution that is so essential | | will come into being....You know what I mean by | | the self? By that, I mean the idea, the memory, | | the conclusion, the experience, the various | | forms of namable and unnamable intentions, the | | conscious endeavor to be or not to be, the | | accumulated memory of the unconscious, the | | racial, the group, the indi vidual, the clan, | | and the whole of it all, whether it is | | projected outwardly in action, or projected | | spiritually as virtue; the striving after all | | this is the self. In it is included the | | competition, the desire to be. The whole | | process of that, is the self; and we know | | actually when we are faced with it, that it is | | an evil thing. I am using the word evil | | intentionally, because the self is dividing; | | the self is self-enclosing; its activities, | | however noble, are separated and isolated. We | | know all this. We also know that extraordinary | | are the moments when the self is not there, in | | which there is no sense of endeavor, of effort, | | and which happens when there is love. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=41 dt=Text Tue, 07 2 Tuesday, February 7th 2006 (Day 38) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[09]--[08]--[08]--[07] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | When thereis love self is not | | ============================== | | | | Reality, truth, is not to be recognized. For | | truth to come, belief, knowledge, experiencing, | | virtue, pursuit of virtue - which is different | | from being virtuous- all this must go. The | | virtuous person who is conscious of pursuing | | virtue can never find reality. He may be a very | | decent person; that is entirely different from | | the man of truth, from the man who understands. | | To the man of truth, truth has come into being. | | A virtuous man is a righteous man, and a | | righteous man can never understand what is | | truth; because virtue to him is the covering of | | the self, the strengthening of the self; | | because he is pursuing virtue. When he says `I | | must be without greed', the state in which he | | is non-greedy and which he experiences, | | strengthens the self. That is why it is so | | important to be poor, not only in the things of | | the world, but also in belief and in knowledge. | | A man rich with worldly riches, or a man rich | | in knowledge and belief, will never know | | anything but darkness, and will be the center | | of all mischief and misery. But if you and I, | | as individuals, can see this whole working of | | the self, then we shall know what love is. I | | assure you that is the only reformation which | | can possibly change the world. Love is not the | | self. Self cannot recognize love. You say "I | | love," but then, in the very saying of it, in | | the very experiencing of it, love is not. But, | | when you know love, self is not. When there is | | love, self is not. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=42 dt=Text Wed, 08 2 Wednesday, February 8th 2006 (Day 39) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[10]--[09]--[09]--[08] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Understanding what is | | ===================== | | | | Surely, aman who is understanding life does not | | want beliefs. A man who loves, has no beliefs- | | he loves. It is the man who is consumed by the | | intellect who has beliefs, because intellect is | | always seeking security, protection; it is | | always avoiding danger, and therefore it builds | | ideas, beliefs, ideals, behind which it can | | take shelter. What would happen if you dealt | | with violence directly, now? You would be a | | danger to society; and because the mind | | foresees the danger, it says "I will achieve | | the ideal of non-violence ten years later which | | is such a fictitious, false process.... To | | understand what is, is more important than to | | create and follow ideals because ideals are | | false, and what is is the real. To understand | | what is requires an enormous capacity, a swift | | and unprejudiced mind. It is because we don't | | want to face and understand what is that we | | invent the many ways of escape and give them | | lovely names as the ideal, the belief,God. | | Surely, it is only when I see the false as the | | false that my mind is capa ble of perceiving | | what is true. A mind that is confused in the | | false, can never find the truth. Therefore, I | | must understand what is false in my | | relationships, in my ideas, in the things about | | me because to perceive the truth requires the | | understanding of the false. Without removing | | the causes of ignorance, there cannot be | | enlightenment; and to seek enlightenment when | | the mind is unenlightened is utterly empty, | | meaningless. Therefore, I must begin to see the | | false in my relationships with ideas, with | | people, with things. When the mind sees that | | which is false, then that which is true comes | | into being and then there is ecstasy, there is | | happiness. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=43 dt=Text Thu, 09 2 Thursday, February 9th 2006 (Day 40) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[11]--[10]--[10]--[09] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | What we believe | | =============== | | | | Does belief give enthusiasm? Can enthusiasm | | sustain itself without a belief, and is | | enthusiasm at all necessary, or is a different | | kind of energy needed, a different kind of | | vitality, drive? Most of us have enthusiasm for | | something or other. We are very keen, very | | enthusiastic about concerts, about physical | | exercise, or going to a picnic. Unless it is | | nourished all the time by something or other, | | it fades away and we have a new enthusiasm for | | other things. Is there a self-sustaining force, | | energy, which doesn't depend on a belief?The | | otherquestion is: Do we need a belief of any | | kind, and if we do, why is it necessary? That's | | one of the problems involved. We don't need a | | belief that there is sunshine, the mountains, | | the rivers. We don't need a belief that we and | | our wives quarrel. We don't have to have a | | belief that life is a terrible misery with its | | anguish, conflict, and constant ambition; it is | | a fact. But we demand a belief when we want to | | escape from a fact into an unreality. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=44 dt=Text Fri, 10 2 Friday, February 10th 2006 (Day 41) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[12]--[11]--[11]--[10] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Agitated by belief | | ================== | | | | So, your religion, your belief in God, is an | | escape from actuality, and therefore it is no | | religion at all. The rich man who accumulates | | money through cruelty, through dishonesty, | | through cunning exploitation believes in God; | | and you also believe in God, you also are | | cunning, cruel, suspicious, envious. Is God to | | be found through dishonesty, through deceit, | | through cunning tricks of the mind? Because you | | collect all the sacred books and the various | | symbols of God, does that indicate that you are | | a religious person? So, religion is not escape | | from the fact; religion is the understanding of | | the fact of what you are in your everyday | | relationships; religion is the manner of your | | speech, the way you talk, the way you address | | your servants, the way you treat your wife, | | your children, and neighbors. As long as you do | | not understand your relationship with your | | neighbor, with society, with your wife and | | children, there must be confusion; andwhatever | | it does, the mind that is confused will only | | create more confusion, m ore problems and | | conflict. A mind that escapes from the actual, | | from the facts of relationship, shall never | | find God; a mind that is agitated by belief | | shall not know truth. But the mind that | | understands its relationship with property, | | with people, with ideas, the mind which no | | longer struggles with the problems which | | relationship creates, and for which the | | solution is not withdrawal but the | | understanding of love-such a mind alone can | | understand reality. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=45 dt=Text Sat, 11 2 Saturday, February 11th 2006 (Day 42) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[13]--[12]--[12]--[11] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Beyond belief | | ============= | | | | We realizethat life is ugly, painful, | | sorrowful; we want some kind of theory, some | | kind of speculation or satisfaction, some kind | | of doctrine, which will explain all this, and | | so we are caught in explanation, in words, in | | theories, and gradually, beliefs become deeply | | rooted and unshakable because behind those | | beliefs, behind those dogmas, there is the | | constant fear of the unknown. But we never look | | at that fear; we turn away from it. The | | stronger the beliefs, the stronger the dogmas. | | And when we examine these beliefs- the | | Christian, the Hindu, the Buddhist- we find | | that they divide people. Each dogma, each | | belief has a series of rituals, a series of | | compulsions which bind man and separate man. | | So, we start with an inquiry to find out what | | is true, what the significance is of this | | misery, this struggle, this pain; and we are | | soon caught up in beliefs, in rituals, in | | theories.Belief iscorruption because, behind | | belief and morality lurks the mind, the self | | the self growing big, powerful and strong. We | | consider belief in God, the belief in | | something, as religion. We consider that to | | believe is to be religious. You understand? If | | you do not believe, you will be considered an | | atheist, you will be condemned by society. One | | society will condemn those who believe in God, | | and another society will condemn those who do | | not. They are both the same. So, religion | | becomes a matter of belief- and belief acts and | | has a corresponding influence on the mind; the | | mind then can never be free. But it is only in | | freedom that you can find out what is true, | | what is God, not through any belief, because | | your very belief projects what you think ought | | to be God, what you think ought to be true. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=46 dt=Text Sun, 12 2 Sunday, February 12th 2006 (Day 43) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[14]--[13]--[13]--[12] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | The screen of belief | | ==================== | | | | You believe in God, and another does not | | believe in God, so your beliefs separate you | | from each other. Belief throughout the world is | | organized as Hinduism, Buddhism, or | | Christianity, and so it divides man from man. | | We are confused, and we think that through | | belief we shall clear the confusion; that is, | | belief is superimposed on the confusion, and we | | hope that confusion will thereby be cleared | | away. But belief is merely an escape from the | | fact of confusion; it does not help us to face | | and to understand the fact but to run away from | | the confusion in which we are. To understand | | the confusion, belief is not necessary, and | | belief only acts as a screen between ourselves | | and our problems. So, religion, which is | | organized belief, becomes a means of escape | | from what is, from the fact of confusion. The | | man who believes in God, the man who believes | | in the hereafter, or who has any other form of | | belief, is escaping from the fact of what he | | is.Do you not know those who believe in God, | | who do puja, who repeat certain chan ts and | | words, and who in their daily life are | | dominating, cruel, ambitious, cheating, | | dishonest? Shall they find God? Are they really | | seeking God? Is God to be found through | | repetition of words, through belief? But such | | people believe in God, they worship God, they | | go to the temple every day, they do everything | | to avoid the fact of what they are -and such | | people you consider respectable because they | | are yourself. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=47 dt=Text Mon, 13 2 Monday, February 13th 2006 (Day 44) FM TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[15]--[14]--[14]--[13] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Meeting life anew | | ================= | | | | One of thethings, it seems to me, that most of | | us eagerly accept and take for granted is the | | question of beliefs. I am not attacking | | beliefs. What we are trying to do is to find | | out why we accept beliefs; and if we can | | understand the motives, the causation of | | acceptance, then perhaps we may be able not | | only to understand why we do it, but also be | | free of it. One can see how political and | | religious beliefs, national and various other | | types of beliefs, do separate people, do create | | conflict, confusion, and antagonism which is an | | obvious fact; and yet we are unwilling to give | | them up. There is the Hindu belief, the | | Christian belief, the Buddhist innumerable | | sectarian and national beliefs, various | | political ideologies, all contending with one | | other, trying to convert one other. One can | | see, obviously, that belief is separating | | people, creating intolerance; is it possible to | | live without belief? One can find that out only | | if one can study oneself in relationship to a | | belief. Is it possible to live in this world wi | | thout a belief not change beliefs, not | | substitute one belief for another, but be | | entirely free from all beliefs, so that one | | meets life anew each minute? This, after all, | | is the truth: to have the capacity of meeting | | everything anew, from moment to moment, without | | the conditioning reaction of the past, so that | | there is not the cumulative effect which acts | | as a barrier between oneself and that which is. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=48 dt=Text Tue, 14 2 Tuesday, February 14th 2006 (Day 45) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[16]--[15]--[15]--[14] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Belief hinders true understanding | | ================================= | | | | If we hadno belief, what would happen to us? | | Shouldn't we be very frightened of what might | | happen? If we had no pattern of action, based | | on a belief- either in God, or in communism, or | | in socialism, or in imperialism, or in some | | kind of religious formula, some dogma in which | | we are conditioned- we should feel utterly | | lost, shouldn't we? And is not this acceptance | | of a belief the covering up of that fear -the | | fear of being really nothing, of being empty? | | After all, a cup is useful only when it is | | empty; and a mind that is filled with beliefs, | | with dogmas, with assertions, with quotations, | | is really an uncreative mind; it is merely a | | repetitive mind. To escape from that fear- that | | fear of emptiness, that fear of loneliness, | | that fear of stagnation, of not arriving, not | | succeeding, not achieving, not being something, | | not becoming something -is surely one of the | | reasons, is it not, why we accept beliefs so | | eagerly and greedily? And, through acceptance | | of belief, do we understand ourselves? On the | | contrary. A beli ef, religious or political, | | obviously hinders the understanding of | | ourselves. It acts as a screen through which we | | look at ourselves. And can we look at ourselves | | without beliefs? If we remove these beliefs, | | the many beliefs that one has, is there | | anything left to look at? If we have no beliefs | | with which the mind has identified itself, then | | the mind, without identification, is capable of | | looking at itself as it is -and then, surely | | there is the beginning of the understand of | | oneself. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=49 dt=Text Wed, 15 2 Wednesday, February 15th 2006 (Day 46) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[17]--[16]--[16]--[15] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Direct observation | | ================== | | | | Why do ideas take root in our minds? Why do not | | facts become all-important- not ideas? Why do | | theories, ideas, become so significant rather | | than the fact? Is it that we cannot understand | | the fact, or have not the capacity, or are | | afraid of facing the fact? Therefore, ideas, | | speculations, theories are a means of escaping | | away from the fact....You may run away, you may | | do all kinds of things; the facts are there the | | fact that one is angry, the fact that one is | | ambitious, the fact that one is sexual, a dozen | | things. You may suppress them, you may | | transmute them, which is another form of | | suppression; you may control them, but they are | | all suppressed, controlled, disciplined with | | ideas....Do not ideas waste our energy? Do not | | ideas dull the mind? You may be clever in | | speculation, in quotations; but it is obviously | | a dull mind which quotes, that has read a lot | | and quotes....You remove the conflict of the | | opposite at one stroke if you live with the | | fact and therefore liberate the energy to face | | the fact. For most of us, contradiction is an | | extraordinary field in which the mind is | | caught. I want to do this, and I do something | | entirely different; but if I face the fact of | | wanting to do this, there is no contradiction; | | and therefore, at one stroke I abolish | | altogether all sense of the opposite, and my | | mind then is completely concerned with what is, | | and with the understanding of what is. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=50 dt=Text Thu, 16 2 Thursday, February 16th 2006 (Day 47) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[18]--[17]--[17]--[16] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Action without idea | | =================== | | | | It is onlywhen the mind is free from idea that | | there can be experiencing. Ideas are not truth; | | and truth is something that must be experienced | | directly, from moment to moment. It is not an | | experience which you want -which is then merely | | sensation. Only when one can go beyond the | | bundle of ideas -which is the "me," which is | | the mind, which has a partial or complete | | continuity only when one can go beyond that, | | when thought is completely silent, is there a | | state of experiencing. Then one shall know what | | truth is. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=51 dt=Text Fri, 17 2 Friday, February 17th 2006 (Day 48) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[19]--[18]--[18]--[17] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Action without the process of thought | | ===================================== | | | | What do wemean by idea? Surely idea is the | | process of thought. Is it not? Idea is a | | process of mentation, of thinking; and thinking | | is always a reaction either of the conscious or | | of the unconscious. Thinking is a process of | | verbalization which is the result of memory; | | thinking is a process of time. So, when action | | is based on the process of thinking, such | | action must inevitably be conditioned, | | isolated. Idea must oppose idea, idea must be | | dominated by idea. There is a gap then between | | action and idea. What we are trying to find out | | is whether it is possible for action to be | | without idea. We see how idea separates people. | | As I have already explained, knowledge and | | belief are essentially separating qualities. | | Beliefs never bind people; they always separate | | people; when action is based on belief or an | | idea or an ideal, such an action must | | inevitably be isolated, fragmented. Is it | | possible to act without the process of thought, | | thoughtbeing a process of time, a process of | | calculation, a process of self-protectio n, a | | process of belief, denial, condemnation, | | justification. Surely, it must have occurred to | | you as it has to me, whether action is at all | | possible without idea. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=52 dt=Text Sat, 18 2 Saturday, February 18th 2006 (Day 49) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[20]--[19]--[19]--[18] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Do ideas limit action | | ====================== | | | | Can ideasever produce action, or do ideas | | merely mold thought and therefore limit action? | | When action is compelled by an idea, action can | | never liberate man. It is extraordinarily | | important for us to understand this point. If | | an idea shapes action, then action can never | | bring about the solution to our miseries | | because, before it can be put into action, we | | have first to discover how the idea comes into | | being. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=53 dt=Text Sun, 19 2 Sunday, February 19th 2006 (Day 50) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[21]--[20]--[20]--[19] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Ideology prevents action | | ======================== | | | | The worldis always close to catastrophe. But it | | seems to be closer now. Seeing this approaching | | catastrophe, most of us take shelter in idea. | | We think that this catastrophe, this crisis, | | can be solved by an ideology. Ideology is | | always an impediment to direct relationship, | | which prevents action. We want peace only as an | | idea, but not as an actuality. We want peace on | | the verbal level which is only on the thinking | | level, though we proudly call it the | | intellectual level. But the word peace is not | | peace. Peace can only be when the confusion | | which you and another make ceases. We are | | attached to the world of ideas and not to | | peace. We search for new social and political | | patterns and not for peace; we are concerned | | with the reconciliation of effects and not in | | putting aside the cause of war. This search | | will bring only answers conditioned by the | | past. This conditioning is what we call | | knowledge, experience; and the new changing | | facts aretranslated, interpreted, according to | | this knowledge. So, there is conflict bet ween | | what is and the experience that has been. The | | past, which is knowledge, must ever be in | | conflict with the fact, which is ever in the | | present. So, this will not solve the problem | | but will perpetuate the conditions which have | | created the problem. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=54 dt=Text Mon, 20 2 Monday, February 20th 2006 (Day 51) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[22]--[21]--[21]--[20] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Action without ideation | | ======================= | | | | The idea is the result of the thought process, | | the thought process is the response of memory, | | and memory is always conditioned. Memory is | | always in the past, and that memory is given | | life in the present by a challenge. Memory has | | no life in itself; it comes to life in the | | present when confronted by a challenge. And all | | memory, whether dormant or active, is | | conditioned, is it not? Therefore there has to | | be quite a different approach. You have to find | | out for yourself, inwardly, whether you are | | acting on an idea, and if there can be action | | without ideation. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=55 dt=Text Tue, 21 2 Tuesday, February 21st 2006 (Day 52) LQ TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[23]--[22]--[22]--[21] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Acting without idea is the way of love | | ====================================== | | | | Thought must always be limited by the thinker | | who is conditioned; the thinker is always | | conditioned and is never free; if thought | | occurs, immediately idea follows. Idea in order | | to act is bound to create more confusion. | | Knowing all this, is it possible to act without | | idea? Yes, it is the way of love. Love is not | | an idea; it is not a sensation; it is not a | | memory; it is not a feeling of postponement, a | | self protective device. We can only be aware of | | the way of love when we understand the whole | | process of idea. Now, is it possible to abandon | | the other ways and know the way of love which | | is the only redemption? No other way, political | | or religious, will solve the problem. This is | | not a theory which you will have to think over | | and adopt in your life; it must be | | actual......When you love, is there idea? Do | | not accept it; just look at it, examine it, go | | into it profoundly; because every other way we | | have tried, and there is no answer to misery. | | Politicians may promise it; the so-called | | religious organizations may p romise future | | happiness; but we have not got it now, and the | | future is relatively unimportant when I am | | hungry. We have tried every other way; and we | | can only know the way of love if we know the | | way of idea and abandon idea, which is to act. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=56 dt=Text Wed, 22 2 Wednesday, February 22nd 2006 (Day 53) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[24]--[23]--[23]--[22] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Conflict of the opposites | | ========================= | | | | I wonder if there is such a thing as evil? | | Please give your attention, go with me, let us | | inquire together. We say there is good and | | evil. There is envy and love, and we say that | | envy is evil and love is good. Why do we divide | | life, calling this good and that bad, thereby | | creating the conflict of the opposites? Not | | that there is not envy, hate, brutality in the | | human mind and heart, an absence of compassion, | | love, but why do we divide life into the thing | | called good and the thing called evil? Is there | | not actually only one thing, which is a mind | | that is inattentive? Surely, when there is | | complete attention, that is, when the mind is | | totally aware, alert, watchful, there is no | | such thing as evil or good; there is only an | | awakened state. Goodness then is not a quality, | | not a virtue, it is a state of love. When there | | is love, there is neither good nor bad, there | | is only love. When you really love somebody, | | you are not thinking of good or bad, your whole | | being is filled with that love. It is only when | | there is th e cessation of complete attention, | | of love, that there comes the conflict between | | what I am and what I should be. Then that which | | I am is evil, and that which I should be is the | | so-called good....You watch your own mind and | | you will see that the moment the mind ceases to | | think in terms of becoming something, there is | | a cessation of action which is not stagnation; | | it is a state of total attention, which is | | goodness. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=57 dt=Text Thu, 23 2 Thursday, February 23rd 2006 (Day 54) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[25]--[24]--[24]--[23] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Beyond duality | | ============== | | | | Are you not aware of it? Are not its actions | | obvious, its sorrow crushing? Who has created | | it but each one of us? Who is responsible for | | it but each one of us? As we have created good, | | however little, so we have created evil, | | however vast. Good and evil are part of us and | | are also independent of us. When we think-feel | | narrowly, enviously, with greed and hate, we | | are adding to the evil which turns and rends | | us. This problem of good and evil, this | | conflicting problem, is always with us as we | | are creating it. It has become part of us, this | | wanting and not wanting, loving and hating, | | craving and renouncing. We are continually | | creating this duality in which thought-feeling | | is caught up. Thought-feeling can go beyond and | | above good and its opposite only when it | | understands its cause -craving. In | | understanding merit and demerit there is | | freedom from both. Opposites cannot be fused | | and they are to be transcended through the | | dissolution of craving. Each opposite must be | | thought out, felt out, as extensively and | | deeply as possible, through all the layers of | | consciousness; through this thinking out, | | feeling out, a new comprehension is awakened | | which is not the product of craving or of | | time.There is evil in the world to which we are | | contributing as we contribute to the good. Man | | seems to unite more in hate than in good. A | | wise man realizes the cause of evil and good, | | and through understanding frees thought-feeling | | from it. | \____________________________________________________/ 5P9i0s8y19Z id=58 dt=Text Fri, 24 2 Friday, February 24th 2006 (Day 55) TO-DO: APPOINTMENTS: DAILY LOG: +-->30+-->60+-->90+-->120 | MAR/ APR/ MAY/ JUN/ +--[26]--[25]--[25]--[24] ,-----------------------------------------------, ,' ___ ___ \ . | _ _| _. / _ ||_ _ _ |__|_ : | |(_)(_|(_|\/_> || |(_)|_|(_|| ||_ | +--------------- /--------------- _|-----------------+ | | | Justifying evil